I love my brother so much. A lot actually. Whenever I look at him, my eyes sparkle, my frowns turn into a smile, and I glow from being happy whenever I am around my brother. Every time I imagine what the future would be like, I can never see myself away from my brother. I can never leave my brother behind anywhere. If there is a time where we get into a sticky situation, I will protect my brother and keep him away from harm. I grew up with my brother side by side. We played together, biked together, swam together, ran together, ate together, supported each other and we always had each others backs. No matter what happens, I will help him grow into a great person with a great future. I will not let him fall. Near or far, I will always be with him. He is my little baby, my sweet little brother, and my one and only childhood best friend that can never be replaced, ever.

well then…time to cry myself to sleep and figure out what I’m going to do! :)

You might find it to be unnoticeable or unrecognizable but I can see it. Everyone is so caught up in being the most attractive woman/man in the world. Everyone wants to have everything. They long for money, good looks, and whatever everyone wishes to have. People need to realize that you cannot have everything you want. Life does not work that way. There are times when you have to let go of wanting what you have always wanted. People who try to achieve the good looks like those supermodels need to realize that they should be proud of who they are. There is no need for the heavy make up or plastic surgery. You can be beautiful by being yourself. If you feel that you must put on makeup, at least put on a light amount of make up. It seems like everyone tries to be near or close to perfect when in reality, there is no such thing as being perfect. 

I am not a perfect person nor am I stunning or appealing to other peoples eyes. I am just a simple regular girl who strives for a great future. I have tried doing my best to fit in with the crowd but I am not that person. Some despise me. Some talk trash about me. Some even treat me like I am invisible. I have never fallen in love with anyone except for one person. I have no intentions on falling in love with anyone else just to get my heart broken all over again. I am not many things. I am not the kind of person that people want me to be. I am Laura Lee. Nobody can change me. Nobody can hurt me anymore. Nobody can take advantage of me any longer. I was that shy and innocent little girl. I still am but do not let my looks deceive you. At one point, I may seem nice, shy and innocent but there are times when I am mean, scary, not shy and never regretful of my words or actions. Life has been rough and it will continue to be rough but I will never fall. I will live to be someone great. I will live to be someone that other people will look up to. I have loved and have not received any sincere love back but it’s okay. I have lost the people who I considered special to me because they did not want me around. I was left behind. Betrayed. Abandoned. It is a scary feeling but I do not care anymore. I am strong. I will be someone great. I can do just fine by myself. All I need in my life is my family. That is all that matters to me. I am sorry that I cannot be that person who everyone wants me to be. I am sorry that I am not good enough for anyone. Those that have betrayed me, abandoned me, hurt me, and underestimated me, don’t be shocked when I am above you in the future. I have learned to be alone, all by myself, because of you. I have learned to feel nothing. I have learned that I can be happy without you in my life. I am not nearly perfect but I know that I will be someone great, I will love someone till the end, I will stay strong and I will never give up.

So many things to do yet so little time.