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Right now, I am uncertain of my feelings. I do not know how I really feel and what is going on in my mind but I am still kind of offended by your actions. I do not want to interrupt the both of you and I do not want to get on your bad sides. I know it has been quite a while now but all I want to do is get things straight but neither of you are giving me the chance to do so. Now, speaking in third person, I loved him for about three years. We both felt the same way about each other for a while and then one day, it felt like everything was slowly drifting apart. I told you everything about him and how much I really loved him. I might have said that I got over him but I never did at that moment. If both of you could have at least told me that something was going on between the two of you, I think that everything would have been okay between us. Instead, the both of you assumed that it would be okay to date each other while I was trying my best to get over him. I had sleepless nights and I went through a whole lot of depression during that time because I was still in love with him. To make things clear, I am not in love with him anymore. I am happy with my life and these days, many good things have been happening to me. The one thing that still bothers me about this whole situation is the fact that the both of you left me with unanswered questions that have been taunting me. You can be disappointed in me for the things I might have done but don’t you think it is a little bit hypocritical to be disappointed in me when the both of you have hurt me to the point where I became depressed? With all due respect and with all honesty, I think I have the right to be disappointed in the both of you. I do not think that neither of you deserve the kind of respect from me when all I have received from the both of you were pain. I really do like the both of you but the things you have done to me is unforgettable. The pain that I felt will never go away but I will never be held back by neither of you. All I really want is to set things straight between us and have all these unanswered questions answered.
