I feel like I can lose anyone in any second of the day. It frightens me. I was always afraid of losing people ever since I was a little girl. Here’s a childhood story:
When I was in pre-school, my father would take me to the nursery all the time. I was afraid that my family would abandon me so I held onto his hand tight so that he would not leave me. I cried for hours, literally. Sometimes, I cried for so long that I even made my dad be late for work.
I was afraid of being abandoned. I was afraid of losing all the people that meant a lot to me. And you know what? I still am. If I ever seem to be so clingy or talkative to you, it is only because I really really like you and I do not ever want to lose you. I want us to stay close and I want to be able to talk to you as much as I can so that way I wouldn’t feel abandoned, lonely and forgotten. I’m sorry if I ever bothered anyone with this annoyance but whether you’re a friend or not, I am really afraid of losing you.