“Laura, you’re so chill and laid back” says a friend of mine. To be honest, I am not a chill and laid back person. I am actually a very stressed out, worrisome, and frustrated person but then I try to get rid of the stress, worries and frustrations by chilling and being laid back….pretty much, not giving a fuck. People always ask me why I do not care about things as much but that is not true. I may act like it but you do not know what goes on in my mind. Every day, 24/7, I am thinking of all the possibilities, outcomes, and things that can happen in my life. I am constantly afraid of losing someone important in my life, being abandoned or left behind. I am worried about my future just like every other person. There are billions of things that will be on my mind, constantly. I cannot leave room for stress, worries and frustrations because it will only make me lose my mind. And that is why I decided to just chill and be laid back so that I will remain calm at all times and finish what I have to finish at ease.